How easily we made promises to each other.
Promising that we'll be there for each other till the end.
But in the end, it seems that only V and I. I felt somehow, abandoned.
I wonder where she went to? Frankly speaking, as much as I loved her company and as much as I loved having her as a ______, I could never bring myself to love her. I could never bring myself to love her as much as I did V. It felt so fake when it was with her.
It was hard to trust her. It was hard to believe her. It was hard to even acknowledge the fact that she would somehow be there for us. Cause, basically, she's never the same person for long. It was hard to feel, what I felt with V, with her. It seemed as though we were merely pawns in her game. She only wanted us around when she had no one else.
But it doesn't matter now, does it? I still have V. :)
& I have Momster. & I have my friends.
& this time, I know they won't abandon me.
I suppose, its best not to go on further.
OK, I MISS US :(
Hidup Mati, Jiwa Cousin.
I'm having terrible tummy aches and it's not the I-need-to-shit kinda tummy aches.
I miss them a lot. Right now the only worry and fear I have is whether we'll still be as close as before. Boo. Kinda sad when you think about it, losing your friends so easily. Them, slipping through my fingers like water and I can't do anything. But enough of being sad! :)
I'll be seeing them real soon as its gonna be a few more weeks until school reopens.
We'll be going to the same class, of course we're gonna see each other!
I hate the fact that I'm still just hopelessly jealous of the fact that the two of them are still together, so much nearer. I love _______ loads and nothings gonna change that you see. It's just that it's normal to want to feel wanted by a mere stranger, to be the object of desire for someone. Be it for a woman or even a man.
It's OK. _______ is still my Number 1 and I wouldn't want it any other way. :)OK PEOPLE !
Basically, I MISS SCHOOL.I miss sitting in the classroom with GFs & HGs, just to finish up our homework.
I miss how comfortable and close I was with my classmates, even with the guys.I miss walking into the parade square LATE.
I miss hearing Ms Loh sound effects during lesson time.I miss sitting beside my partners'.
I miss bursting into laughter with GFs.
I miss dry-humping with my all time favourite, Anisuuu.
I miss the way lessons used to be.I miss her burping machine.
I miss doing retarded stuff with classmates.
( Remember the video, see who has the loudest and funniest snort?)HAISHHH.
As time pass, a few weeks will be like a few days.
& I dread doing homework last minute, cause it's already in the blood. :D
By the way, was out with Nysh yesterday.
Mok bought donuts. ( How I wish I'm anorexic. )
Played soccer with a bunch of small kiddos cum sore losers.
We won the overall game. ( EHEM. National players. )
But hey, they cheated. So we're equal. :)
Kan Mok Kan ?
I had this overwhelming urge to blog when I started at 0228 AM. It's nearly 4 AM now and I've not written much stuff. I feel like a failure. Boo.
Shoot me for being random.
Oh well, Aifa's & Kak Norma's birthday is in 2 weeks. I'm broke. How....bleugh?
Am waiting for the clock to strike 5 AM, for my regular jogging routine.
There's still an hour more to go. PFFFTTT!
ZOMG! I now realize that there's a big possibility that I'm
suffering from Insomnia. ( Big circle-Underscore-Small circle )
