Dearly Beloved
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Thursday, January 24, 2008
Almost everything around me gave me a goddamn fucked up day.
Moodswing is a B-I-T-C-H. So confused, but yet, everything makes perfect sense. I'm not sure what's wrong but... it's probably my fault. Everyone makes mistakes. This affects my mood like fucking too much LAH! I know it's fucking rude of me to be thinking such horrible things about ________. I fucking hate myself cause I can't even be a fucking good friend to anyone. I should seriously kick myself. B-E-S-T part of all.. My fucking phone D-I-E-D when it was our first monthsary, 22Jan08. Yeah, so right now, I have to act like it doesn't freaking affect me. The fact that I cant fucking contact my cousins or anyone (except GFs) cause my contacts weren't saved inside my SIM card, makes me feel extremely lonely. Go figure. Why the hell, I never stopped to think that this would or most probably happen ? Well.. way a go DUMB ASS! Self-reminder; save contacts to SIM I lost my fucking warranty card TOO. This seriously starting to piss me off like fuck!! Its a fucking stupid and trivial matter but I fucking don't care cause it fucking hurts inside and all I can do now is wipe the fucking tears away from my face and live with it cause I fucking cannot do anything so I should just shut the fuck up! How can it not hurts when it just comes to fixing a goddamn 1-month-old phone cost a fucking $80-$100 ?! Truthfully, I never thought it would come to this. I'm fucking broke. Am feeling damn sorry for myself. . OK, I wanna like... lie down and cry cause I've never felt this sad since forever. I think I'm not fit to be blogging right now. Not even done with any school work. I feel like absolute crap. Maybe, tomorrow will be a good day. I HOPE.   PS. - GFs & momma, ILY! Thanks for anything or everything for today, much appreciated. :] I may have no self control but life is simple, its just not easy. |
